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I listened to "It ends tonight" and freakin cried my eyes out AT WORK today. I'm still flippin ballin like a baby... I am in crazy deep mourning for something I never even had. For feelings dreams and desires that aren't even right or pure. I CAN'T STOP CRYING!! I don't want to let go... I don't want to!!!!!! Why can't we just be together. this is so hard... SO HARD!
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Last confession.
So I feel like it's over, and it needs to be. BUT I LOVE YOU SO MUCH, IT KILLS ME! We both agree that there's nothing we can do. I believe if we make our best effort at pretending, we can move past this to just friends again... I just hope and pray 2 things. 1. That God has a really nifty reason for this to happen (cause I can't figure it out). 2. That the nifty reason includes us being together someday. (Ok, so it's just a 2 part hope/prayer)
- I'm glad you've chosen not to write here too. Although It would be nice (not good at all) to see...
- The main reason why I enjoyed reading your email to my wife is because, although you must have been in agony writing it, I can see that I was on your mind the whole time. :) Plus it was hilarious!
- I won't post here again, although I may return on occasion to reminisce (and secretly see if you've caved and posted!) But don't, really... It's like Pringles, once you do it once, you won't stop. (as you can see)
Just know that I'll think of you often and my feelings won't change.
I love you FAR more than I should and with all my being.
(I still can't figure out why I have to be so ridiculously dramatic when I post here... It's weird.)
Oh! You have no IDEA how much my heart melted at that tiny comment you made when you first saw me with my cool new hat.
AND! I'm sorry about the comment (or what was implied by my lack of comment) on your hair. I loved it and thought you were amazing from the moment I saw you. I just didn't want to freak you out.
Your butt is great (not too big at all)
We'd be amazing together!
I love your pic.
You're awesome!
I miss you.
Gotta go.
See ya.
Bye.
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BTW, I not only like your new pic, I LOVE it! You have no idea! wow! It is really FANTASTIC and I made it your new contact pic on my phone.
I wont be sending you any more FB messages. I can't. I'm sorry... It's too hard, I'm sure you agree...
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Is there really nothing we can do???? I can't stop thinking about you, no matter how hard i try (and pray). It would be a huge HUGE mistake to divorce them and run away together, right??? RIGHT? UGH... I tried to sleep last night but couldn't stop thinking about how fantastically AMAZING the physical stuff, that we didn't do, would be. I just can't let go... And can't seem to get my head around the idea of NEVER EVER being with you. There is a hole in my heart; i miss you.
XOXOXOXO
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Im in love with someone who isnt my husband. im becoming obsessed with seeing him. it hurts so much now. nothing really physical has happenend. i just want to be happy. will i ever be happy. probably not. please just don't love anyone else. i love you x
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I hate you. I'm trying to be a forgiving person and forgive you and myself, but I hate the way you've made me feel. I hate everything about you. I hate it when you come see me at work. I hate the stupid things you say. I hate your stupid face. I HATE YOU. I've never felt so down on myself until I met you. The awful thing about it is that I can't stop blaming myself for how I feel. I want you to hurt and I hope someone hurts you and makes you feel the way I feel right now. Fuckin shitty dickhead! I hope you get fucked.
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why do i have to get treated the way i do? why am i hated by my family? they wish me dead all the time and people think im supposed to stay sane? i wish i would die just to make everyone in my family so much more happy. the only one i really love is my son. even then so my mom tells my son all the time that i dont love him. why do i have to deal with these kinds of things like depression and verbal abuse?
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There are some crazy stories on here...
Anyway, I strive to go back to the time where I was blessed and comforted. Before we perverted the intent God had for us. I take refuge in the thought of a WONDERFUL life with you IF / AND when the time comes. Yes, hope is frail and hard to kill... Thats why I trust Him for my strength, peace and hope. Prov.3.5
But the simple fact is, we won't divorce them; which lends itself to the harsh reality that we can't be together unless God wants us to be.
I still think of you often. Far more often than I lead you to believe. But really, what are we holding on to?
P.S. I'm glad you read these even though it really offers no benefit to our situation. :)
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I dont LOVE YOU ANYMORE
LEAVE ME ALONE STOP TRYING TO MESS WITH MY LIFE
STOP TALKING SHIT
Go fuck the little girl you call your girlfriend
fuck her life up next
leave me alone !!!
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I know I'm going to fall in love with him
everything about him makes me loose my breath
we have the same thoughts about things
the kissing is perfection
my heart knows he's the one
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I, Darick Gayden of Mississippi, cheated on my wife for 4 years. I never loved my wife, I was interested in her sister. I thought my wife was ugly. I still think she is ugly. I have dated and had sex in our house for years. I dated the lady that lived on my block when I took my daught over for a birthday party. I have had sex in the private room at my job with a lady that works in customer service. We had oral sex. I am sorry A.